Josue Plaza

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April 2011

90 posts

i wonder how much blood I've lost from pursuing...

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Okay, I really, really want to do this. Anyone else? Let’s fuckin’ go. (click the title link)

default picture and layout. Got rid of the music player because I’m sure most people turn it off anyway. I’m so deleting my Twitter soon. It’s so useless nowadays. I wish I could delete my Facebook. Unfortunately, I have to keep my personal page in order to admin my band page. (LAME) So to substitute for “deleting” my page, I’m just going to delete another...

Anonymous asked: Why do you think of yourself as not good enough? You clearly have no idea how much you are truly appreciated. I've already lost one friend this week, I don't need to lose another.

I always use correct punctuation when typing, but this stupid layout takes away apostraphes and indentions. Really. Fucking. Annoying. (For someone who likes to show off their grammar skillz). I just might find a new layout just because of that. (If I can’t find the HTML that is causing it and delete it.) That is all. That is all.

Ever have those days where nothing really goes wrong, yet you find yourself in a shitty mood? Yeah, It’s one of those days for me. To make it worse, whenever I find myself in one of these moods, I tend to blame it on me taking life for granted (usually putting myself in a worst mood). Luckily, these types of days are becoming more & more scarce as I learn how to cope with them....

I hug my pillow at night imagining it's you.

“I’m swimming in the smoke, Of bridges I have burned. So don’t...”

– Linkin Park

10 Minute Suicide Guide. →

If you are thinking about committing suicide, here’s a short guide to explain everything that could, should, and will happen to the people who loved you, and yourself. Hilarious, great read with a serious message. Seriously, read this. (Click the title to go to the article)

I received today: I’m listening to the CD right now. I only know track No. #2 which is from Travie McCoy’s solo album. on Track #7. p.s., you were supposed to tell me who you are already! oh, and I’m 99% sure I know who you are. You’re name starts with an A.

is the word that I’m constantly thinking about today. I feel dirt on my hands, and I have the worst breath right now. I feel as if I don’t have any control over my future, and haven’t for a really long time. In order to attempt to reestablish confidence & control, I’ve tried to shutdown opportunities of my life that implicate any risk of disappointment, anxiety,...

Anonymous asked: No idea who you are but saw one of your comments on a fb friend and you reminded of this guy who was in my college class. Your posts tumblr reminded me of him, quiet/reserved probably afraid to initiate the talking. It made it difficult :|.

No question though, just wanted to say that but great music.

I was scheduled to do 3 hour non-stop shelving, something they almost never schedule me for. So to pass by the time, I started to think about some past memories, replaying them in my head to try and make things go quicker. Although, all that really did was make time go by even slower, and kept me smiling like a dumbass. oh well. It was worth it. Does anyone else get excited when they complete a...

Anonymous asked: I'm just afraid you'll be disappointed... and think I'm the biggest stalker ever. lol. But I will tell you by the end of next week. I promise.

Anonymous asked: How am I teasing you?

Anonymous asked: Maybe. :/

SO DO I! I go to the library for the nice, quiet atmosphere.
Then when someone starts yapping on their cellphone it throws off my vibe. >:|

Yes!
The whole time I kept thinking "Shit. He knows. He's going to say something to me. This whole thing is ruined."
Then I realized you weren't even paying attention.

Anonymous asked: But hermits are mean! They pinch your fingers.:|

Does the silence drive you crazy?

I can't think of any hints that wouldn't be a dead giveaway!.
But I will say that you stood right next to me yesterday.
And you had no clue whatsoever. :)

Anonymous asked: I attend your high school.

So you plan on being a hermit?:p

How is working at the library?

My name is Anonymous.;)

Anonymous asked: I haven't measured. But I can see the difference when I frown. lol. I love Ayn Rand. She was a great thinker. And who said we aren't current acquaintances? :)

Why are you so sure that you will be alone? I don't mind solitude either. But after a while, it's like I get trapped in my own head if I'm alone for too long. You know?

My day was nice....

Anonymous asked: F Baker "Dreamland"
Page 219

Anonymous asked: 910.9163 Woodward "A brave vessel"
Page 107

Anonymous asked: I'm becoming skeptical. Maybe I shouldn't have done all of this. I feel stupid. :/

Anonymous asked: Soon.

Anonymous asked: I will reveal who I am, in good time. I still have a few clues for you.:) Why waste all of the clever planning and ruin the surprise over Tumblr? I want to see your face when you realize who I am.

Pretty happy that I haven’t lost interest in this site. :) I want to make this particular post epic, but I have exactly nothing in mind. So I’ll just say a quote. “You were the best thing summer gave me… better than silence and no school. No curfew and no rules. I was the last thing you expected… to become part of your life. oh god. to become part of your...

Anonymous asked: I cannot risk my anonymity.

I’m waiting. but I’m running out of time.. hurry. please.

Anonymous asked: I don't think so. But then again, there's always the possibility.

We’re creating pet rocks in my advertising class. We - Decorate them. give it a name. give it a personality. make a radio ad. (WTF?) a commercial. print ad. a “sales pitch” to sell it at an auction. If i actually knew somebody in my advertising class, I may have liked it. This is like a kindergarten project!

Anonymous asked: Are you happy?

Anonymous asked: We have met.

Anonymous asked: No. It is what gave me the idea to do this.
I might add that the cinematography is beautiful.

Next book...
92 Brown "A Piece of Cake"
Page 444

“you can eat shit and fucking DIE.”

My progression of depression has given me an obsession to question everything around me with aggression. Anything from recession to oppression has me struggling to seek redemption. Although I don’t understand why I’m searching for reasons divine to compromise a suicide, I struggle to find light and define an adequate substitute for dying. But then again, I shouldn’t pretend...

Save the planet, kill yourself.

Anonymous asked: Physically, what is your type? and do you prefer blondes, brunettes, or red heads?

Anonymous asked: When was the last time you took a girl to the movies?

Anonymous asked: Have you seen 500 Days of Summer yet, and if so, how did it make you feel?

Anonymous asked: who are the top 3 girls you were most attracted/attached to and why?

Future is in the past.

Today is Friday. I’m home alone, with nothing to do. Nobody is online to game with, and nobody has texted or called since Wednesday. I’m too selfish to text someone first and strike up a conversation or ask to hang out. I’m going to sit here, alone in my room and read.. ..possibly work music.. Is this how the next four years of my life going to play out? Maybe.. Maybe...