April 2011
90 posts
“I want you to notice, what you’ve been missing.
I want you to feel that....”
– innerpartysystem.
a letther.
I can’t stand you.
I renounce you.
I’m irritated at the sight of you.
I talk shit about you.
I complain about you.
I’m fed up with you.
I’ve lost you.
I detest you.
I complicate you.
but most of all,
I adore you.
if you think this is about you, it probably is.
Why can't I look up?
I think I’m becoming better at observing myself, mostly in school.
(The whole idea of “observing myself” is to watch every single action I do, analyze it, and make changes in order to become a better person. My goal is to eliminate my self-centered nature, or at least reduce it.)
Today I happened to notice me doing more narcissistic things than usual. As I came across these...
Aim is Mia backwards.
When I’m bored, alone in my room with nothing to do, I sometimes find myself scourging through everyone else’s profiles on Facebook. Some of the people I go and look at are usually had a class with me once, or had been friends with me at a certain time in their life.
As I browse through their pictures, About Me sections and Wall Posts, I recall all the old memories we shared.
...
Dreams (Again).
4/6/11
2 dreams last night.
was set in a apocalyptic world. Everything was … not like a wasteland, a little greener. Hella deserted. (Kind of gives me a great idea for a story)
About me getting to know I girl I really like at school. In the dream we make our first kiss. Greatest “dream day” of my life.
schooltime.
bye.
The Lunch Table!
Today at my lunch table.
Starring: My friend Adrian, and a chic we'll call Sally.
Sally: WTF? Why does everybody have candy bars?
(Adrian pulls out a snickers bar and starts eating)
Sally: Adrian! Can I have your snickers pleaseeeeee?
Adrian: Can we smash?
Sally: What! No! Pleasee, can I have some?
(Adrian beaks off an end, holds it up)
Adrian: This is worth at least a blowjob.
(the conversation continues to unfold, eventually Adrian gave Sally his snickers, then takes her water bottle.)
Sally: Adrian, give me back my water bottle!
Adrian: Only if we can smash.
(Adrian pours half of the water bottle into a friend's empty gatorade bottle.)
Sally: WTF! (Snatches water bottle, then swings the water at Adrian. Water goes everywhere, landing on everyone else at the table. Mostly hitting Adrian and his friend.)
Adrian: ...
(Sally then grabs the gatorade bottle that was filled previously with water, and unfolds the contents of that as well onto Adrian. Sally walks off. Teachers and about 90% of the cafe see's the whole thing. Adrian is forced to clean up, and go to the VP.)
Funniest thing ever if you watched. Must have SUCKED for Adrian.
The devil talks to me every night before I fall asleep.
He tells me I’m his son. and one day we’ll meet.
I’ll join him in the underworld right below our feet.
Sadly, I cannot transpire until I’ve met my ultimate defeat.
Because I have a mission in mind; a repuation to withhold.
A devious a plan of which, unfortunately I cannot divulge.
As time progresses, the details...
“I’m screaming at the top of my lungs, pretending the echoes belong to...”
– The Postal Service
Getting no reply from someone you constantly think...
I’m going to prepare for this horrible night by going to bed now.
bye.
Dreams.
4/4/11
Had a dream that I was soundproofing a room at school. I don’t know why. But the foam I was using was unusually a white color.
That’s all I remember.
4/3/11
The earlier night I had two dreams. One was Kayla, my poptart friend, was actually a cyborg.
The other was Nadine sneaking out and sleeping over. ↓
both good dreams. (and no the dream about Nadine wasn’t...
hereafter
was a long movie, and never thaaaaat engaging. But I have to admit I enjoyed it. The small romantic subplot was simply adorable (Matt Damon and a French chick? FUCK YES!). The little boy who lost his brother can’t act. Sorry. That’s how I feel about that. But don’t let that ruin the movie for you. Go watch it. I assure you a happy ending. (Wish I could say the same about the...
Looking forward to...
Owl City’s “All Things Bright & Beautiful” album coming out May 12th.
Christopher Paolini’s “Inheritance” book. November 8th. (The fourth and final!)
Asking Alexandria’s “Reckless & Relentless” coming out. April 5th.
+ their delayed dubstep album “Stepped Up & Scratched”, which is “Stand Up And Scream”...
when it comes to love, i take it to heart.
Bad Day.
nothing compared to the bad days some people have in their life. But for a good day, it’s a pretty bad day.
Today I…
Had to return a headset that wasn’t compatible with my TV monitor.
Went to my bank to deposit my paycheck. Turns out since my bank account is new, the payment won’t be active for 8 days..
withdrew $100 from savings (i HATE withdrawing from savings)
...
good mourning.
It’s been awhile since I actually wrote a journal entry.
I’m about 95% done with recording with the EP! I’m already working on the beats for the upcoming rap / hip-hop mixtape with Adrian, Aaron, Troy, Chris, and any other friend who wants to spit something.
It’s going to be a more relaxed project. and I’ve never mixed anything not pertaining to the Electronic...
