July 29th, 2012

I spend money faster than a tycoon. And that sucks because I really want to be more frugal. 99% of the time I am, but when that 1% has its day, I succomb to my expensive ambitions.

Unicorn mask?! Bought.
Dinner at an elegant resturant?! Quite.
What’s that, guys? You want to see The Dark Knight Rises again even though I already saw it? Great idea!

At the end of the day, I’m drowning in a sea of buyer’s regret and usually a hundred bucks less than when I woke up. So-
Wait,
Have you noticed a pattern to all of my text entries? I only write when I complaining about something. Most of the time, they are about love, stressing out, or wanting to do something. What the hell? What a materialistic attitude I have. How am I just realizing how flawed my method of thinking is? Even this complaint right now isn’t helping.

No, I can’t be as materialistic as… Umm. A stereotypical TEENAGER , right?!?!
There is only one way to be sure. I’m going to write down the next few things that pop into my head. Here goes-

1. I really want to start learning archery.
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2. I’m almost ready to buy all the necessary parts to build my computer.
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3. Can’t wait to get home and continue to work on music.
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4. Or clean my room.
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5. Or finish decorating it.
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6. Or finish my chores.
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7. I really need to finish writing the Honors College application essay.
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Okay, now I’ll allow myself to evaluate… myself.

1. Archery desire. Meh, a little materialistic. But I only want to learn for my own entertainment. Haha, like I need a new form of entertainment…
2. Computer Parts. I guess this is just a statement… Right?! That thought doesn’t have any sort of materialistic bias to it… right? I mean, I am looking forward to buying these parts… so I can build that computer and enterain myself with video games…
3. Music. Music is my passion. I will never regret having the feeling to make some.
4-7. Chores. I’d say those thoughts are just there to make me feel bad about my procrastination. I should feel bad. And I shall continue to feel bad until I get off my lazy ass and do them.

Conclusion: There’s so much beauty in this world, and maybe I should learn to appreciate it more…

Yeah this is the most reckless and sloppiest post I’ve typed in awhile and I don’t regret A THING.